ADVICE PLEASE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?…

I don't mean this to be rude but your question and included comments are so well written that I have a hard time believing it is really written by a 13 year old girl. If you are who you say you are, then my advice is this - first, stop that bad self-talk. I can hear the tape recorder (now it's called a CD) in your mind playing the same message over and over - negative self-talk. This is not healthy. You are a bright person with a bright future in a terrible (albeit TEMPORARY) situation. When I was young, I often listened to huge battles between my mom and dad. She threw a pot of hot coffee on him. He strangled her up against the wall with her feet dangling below her. I was constantly crying for them to stop and then when they divorced, my mom's temper and anger at the previous situation went full tilt. The one thing that gave me the most peace through all of it was being able to lie quietly on my bedroom floor (or outdoors if I was hiding from the sounds of the hissy fit) and daydream about what my life was going to be like when I was in full control of it. I used to see myself with a good looking husband who was quiet, self-controlled, intelligent, he valued me, we laughed all the time and rarely argued. Years later after I was out of that situation with my family, I found this husband whose picture I had painted so well, so many times years and years earlier - and he is exactly as I wanted. He is so kind and quiet. I am never abused. I am cherished. Yes, you are in a terrible situation right now. But the future is right around the corner. Hold onto what you want - paint the picture in your head, write it down in words in a journal (journaling your feelings actually help a LOT - there are entire medical research studies done on the positive effects of journaling). And for now, as much as possible, stay away - STEER CLEAR - of those people who are rough or unkind or treat you unwell. Even if they are family. You be silent. Don't encourage them and don't engage them in conversation or as little as possible. And then plan for your future and your freedom. It is closer than you think.